Sometimes I keep silent and I imagine myself responding to something that is said to me in person and then I imagine your reaction to it. And I may concurrently but absentmindedly laugh about something you just said, a little too loudly or smirk so strongly that my eyes begin to water because I am now trying so hard to stifle my bursting out laughing; you think I found your quip that funny and so you’re elated.
No, my conscious mind didn’t even hear what you said. So you ask me something about what you said and I don’t seem to know what you’re talking about. You probably call me weirdo in your head and hope I don’t read your mind and find out that you just did. Then you say something else to dispel the air of awkwardness we just had in the group conversation.
So, as I lie in bed to retire for the day, I suddenly burst out, laughing my head off just because I now remember the joke you shared which I was supposed to laugh at in the afternoon.
I almost fall off my bed triggered by someone laughing out so hardly next door at the hostel.
The mind is a strange thing.
I have been dreaming all this while.
Written Wednesday 18th March, 2015. I thought about the phrase ‘mandatory silence’ randomly and these words came to me which I tweeted as I was moved. I then read through it several times and did what I had to before I thought it cool to share it with you.]